04 8 / 2011
The look in your eyes lied to me
I’m not sure why it took me so long to get to this point but its time to say what I’ve figured out. Your wife and children are your top priority, as they should be. After that comes work, then who knows what, then somewhere at the bottom is me. I am not worth 2 min a week of your time to respond or to even acknowledge the possible plans we had. That last night, you looked at me, you held my hand. I felt like you wanted to be with me. It was all a lie. You only want what you want from me when you want it. Like I can be put on a shelf. I don’t work that way. I never asked for much from you. For a time, I got more than I ever expected. Now we’re back to nothing. Your actions show me that you don’t care at all. I need to walk away for my own sanity. You can have your life. I never want to feel like a bother or a burden again.
I will walk away. I know you won’t come after me, you already have the life you want.
I hope you enjoyed what we had. It was good while it lasted. That’s over now, all that’s left is me hanging on to what I thought we had.
